I finally get to sit down and blog.  Didn’t think I would be able to because of all the cleaning I had to do.  Thankfully, I got most of it done just in time to ring in the New Year in a clean, comforting home.

I just wanted to make this a reflection post about.. well, 2011.  Possibly even about what 2012 is hopefully going to be like through my eyes.

This past year, I’ve tried to stay out of many situations.  I looked at the people around me as teachers instead of colleagues, friends, acquaintances.  This year, I could never recall being lost in the moment or myself “living in the moment.”  I was too busy thinking about what is ahead of me.  The challenges and the accomplishments.  I was too occupied looking at people’s mistakes and telling myself that I need to avoid such things.  I thought, “That shit’s def going to bring me down.”  I looked up all year.

Don’t get me wrong.  I’m glad I did that.  I know what’s ahead of me and what or who I need to avoid.  When I say “who,” I’m referring to the people that I know aren’t there for me whenever.  I realized who sticks around when I need them.  So, there are some bright sides. 

I think 2011, overall, gave me a slap in the face.  I automatically thought, “Damn, I’m going to be a junior in high school.  I need to get my shit together.”  So all year, I tried.  I tried to be what I aimed to be.  Now that the clock is about to strike twelve, I’m actually… not going to stop.

This coming year, I’m going to continure to aim in the right direction, but I truly need to keep my balance with everything.  My life can’t be half family, half friends.  I have the hundred other things I must to commit to.  Balance is something I definitely need in my life.  I’ve been trying, trust me. However, we all find some things that are difficult for us to master.  Balance has to be one of the toughest.  Reviewing on what I wanted to say, they may sound like resolutions or what not, but mostly, their just goals I’ve had my whole life that I haven’t really conquered. I want to do make sure I check off five to seven things on my bucket list… and other things.

I dont know. I’ll post my goals later. I have to go do stuff again, ha. Going to get ready for the New Year!